Why laughing aches

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Originally uploaded by mchughtie.

How funny to be leaving this life for a while. Making sense of my motives is nothing but a hilarious dance with words, ungainly and futile. For example the words, "I want to understand another culture" ring goofily to me when I've never made sense of the culture I belong to, or at least never belonged to a culture that made sense. And the idea of loving, loving my life right now, as is, what of that? That's funniest of all I think, choosing to walk away from the best moments of my life so far.